I ask myself this often. How do people decide what to focus on? Should you focus on researching a new tv or a drawing class for kids, or focus on all your work related stuff?
I don’t have a boss per se (I have clients and partners), so it’s a tough thing to figure out. Not being told what to do seems like freedom, and it should be. I’m lucky.
But I often feel like a slave to time. How to allocate my time most efficiently. That doesn’t sound pleasant. Sounds like a life tied to the clock.
There is this constant balance of how to spend my time. How does everyone else figure this out in my shoes? I don’t know.
I’m always feeling guilty. When I’m working I should be relaxing more, enjoying life. When I’m trying to relax or play with my kids, I should be working. You know this story.
Is there a way out of this? I haven’t found it. As I get older, my perception of striving for riches and glory has changed. Family, friends and people are really all that matter. I need to be able to pay the bills and have an interesting career. But in the end connecting with people is all that matters.
So much of my 20s and 30s were focused on career. Every waking second I had to be productive, learning, striving. It just hurts saying it.
We all die. And in the end no one will care if you made more money. In fact in 80 years no one will even remember who you really are. Humans have been around for 100,000+ years. 80 years is nothing.
I know this. Yet I still struggle with the balance. Because I still want to make money and do some interesting things with my career.